Write Away

Ugh, things are going terribly.

The next story idea I had picked just doesn't make me care enough, so I started questioning whether I should return to my back-burner massive trilogy idea, but the reason why I set it aside in the first place (aka being incredibly overwhelming) is still true, so I haven't made any progress there either. I realized I've never actually been in this situation before, and that in the past whenever I've started on a new story it's been a "it chose me" kind of deal. Here I'm trying to move on simply because I need to start on the next thing, and it's a struggle.

I've decided to try being gentle for a while and see if that gets me anywhere better, but it's hard to fight the feeling that I'm not accomplishing anything / should be trying harder / blah blah do better. There's no one to tell me whether I'm doing things right or doing enough, but I still feel everyone's eyes on my back.

Basically I'm flailing through a new kind of transition with little sense of direction and a lot of negative feelings.